Book Review: Submission (Deviations #1) by Chris Owen & Jodi Payne

"Oh, my God."

That's probably the best quote in the book to describe the whole thing. Sure, this was not my first time reading novels about gay sex but this is my first time reading BDSM between gay people. Ugh, it just turns me on! It's so hot, so so HOT! And this book seriously makes me consider the possibility of watching gay people having sex right in front of me! Honestly, by the time I got somewhere in the middle of this first book in the series, I was warm, saccharine, melted chocolate. The sexual aspect aside, I thought it as a really meaningful book. It wasn't just about sex or the kinks of BDSM. The characters have this kind of fathomless depth. You take a look at them and sort of expect them to be a certain way and then boom! out comes a surprise, like you've know this certain character in the book to have this kind of personality and don't expect them to act a certain way. Some, like Phan, act a certain way and give you the impression of being okay but truth be told they actually come from this broken place. I knew there were going to be twists, unexpected or otherwise. I just didn't realize the range and depth of these twists until I was at around the third one in the series. The people are just so complexicated that I literally thought that my head would explode from all of the stuff I've been reading and taking in. I love how the authors wrote the book. I get so immersed into the book and the characters and the story, which I never really expected. When I discovered the existence of such a genre in books, I was quite speculative and was skeptical whether I would enjoy. I more than just enjoy it. I'm bathing in it and I love it. There are also love triangles in it and it's frustrating, which is great! Love triangles are meant to be frustrating. This books actually makes me yell out loud or talk to myself and my friends and family would just stare at me as if something just went wrong in my head and it makes me giddy that this books does that to me. It's also very emotional. It deals with a lot of emotion, issues, things like insecurity or jealousy that we sometimes take for granted or just expect them to exist. This books delves much deeper when it comes to those things. It leaves me desperate for the next and at the same time too drained to get over it because this book is hard for me to get over with. After I read this one, I took over one whole day off from reading books. I need to read books like I need air!(Okay, that's a little exaggerated but it's true.) My head was deep in "subspace" if you get what I mean. I am head-over-heels in love with this book so I sincerely hope that there are more of it to come.

-read on November 2, 2013